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what a Beautiful Name.
what a Beautiful Name.
Son of God, Son of Man
Lamb that was slain
caron xu jiahui
bethesda bedok-tampines church; Youth Church
gongshang.ahs.vjc
NUS Nursing
Lamb that was slain
i love the king and he loves me.
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caron xu jiahui
bethesda bedok-tampines church; Youth Church
gongshang.ahs.vjc
NUS Nursing
"For i have plans for you,"
declares the Lord,
"plans to prosper you
and not to harm you,
plans to give you a hope and a future."
-Jeremiah 28
joy and peace, strength and hope
grace that blows all fear away.
woohoo.
im supposed to be studying right now..but haiyuh.let me blog just once pleaaaaaaaaaassssse.
ok. permission granted.
i feel so happy cause i jogged 4 km just now..heeeheee.may not seem like a lot but oh well.it is for me k..everytime i will jog arn 3 km n im tired. and had my eng n chi paper one today.
hmm..sigh..dont think i will do well for my eng compo..crap lah..i wrote like 3 times..first i wrote qn2..den qn 5..den i cancelled n wrote 2..crap.i just have to leave things to god now.
god im sorry if i have doubted you.
im sorry if i have taken you for granted.
imsorry god.
sigh. and i feel kinda lousy n terrible cause i ve been falling aslp on my parents bed when studying n i din do my qt? my rm air con spoil so i can only study there.and the weather is like so hot lah...screams.
and had amaths tuition est at my unc hse fm 7plus til 11 plus..i wanted to scream at him to stop but i didn and asked god for patience n endurance..my unc just seem so concentrated and concerned about my work and i would have felt horrible if i did that.and i cried in daddy's car..but silently. was screaming in my soul.
sigh..i shall not doubt god's help.n i shall work harder..easier said then done.
but i think today's oral was good..mrs rod said i speak well..grins.at least one encouraging thought.
alone, my heart began its silent glide through space.
and in that moment, my spirit returned.
ok.back to studying.my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.
sigh.
im finally bloggin. was so busy this whole week.
and ive got so many things to say. just hop i wun forget them..
went to do CIP at simei yest..went to city link at first..but the ppl were so dao n selfish we din want to ask them for donations anymore..so we moved to bishan.
that was when i met my cute guy! *gushes.
ahh!! he plays badminton i think..was in his sports polo..it was yellow n black..n it had a spore flag on top..so thik his a national player..hahas.
hes so nice.as in i asked him to donate n he said he would come back..i waited quite long..thot he wouldn..but he did come back!! n he donated 2 bucks! hahas. so nice right? as in who would walk back all the way n give a two buck?
hahas.ok.but i dun think i will meet him again anyway..
wohoo.was washing all the socks the other day..and was chanting "christlike christlike" to push myself to wash..sigh. i think it is so difficult..and haiya.my amaths sucks.i think i really let down my uncle..he tried so hard..and i faild him and everyone else..why is my maths so lousy? i will just have t work harder..but i dun even know if that will help.
and i dont know what im doin now. especially last night..sigh.i know ma wun see this but who cares.im sorry ma. think i was so ap last night. ackx. tell you im weird.
yeah..o levels? study.
wont you take me by the hand take me somewhere new?
only you and me.my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.
Rich or Poor?
One day a father took his rich family and his son on a trip to the country with the firm purpose of showing him how poor people can be. They spent a day and a night on the farm with a very poor family. When they got back from their trip, the father asked his son, " How was the trip?"
" Very good, Dad! "
" Did you see how poor people can be? " the father asked.
" Yeah! "
" And what did you learn? "
The son answered, " I saw that we have a dog at home, and they have four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of the garden, they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lamps in the garden, they have the stars. Our patio reaches to the front yard, they have a whole horizon. "
When the little boy had finished, his father was speechless.
His son added, " Thanks dad! For showing me how poor we are! "
my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.
aiyo. ive been wanting to change my skin for so long and i have no time.
either that or blogskin screws up..
anyway..i think what added to my horrible emotions was that the fact that i was pmsing..
grins
ya..but was still feeling so lousy then.
still..i am past that stage and i do want and hope to not go there again.
there are of course some doubts and issues i haven settled yet. ( like how to mk howl mine.hee) ya..more impt stuff la..but all im concerned now is how to have faith like a child-how to please god and make him happy, and trust him in all circumstances.
and of course to force my lazy bum to study.
sigh. im already like wasting time. still have my lit to finish and bio too. last qn..darn.
anw received my exam timetable and found that it sucked totally..it was like so packed and cramped together..the wrong papers for the wrong days..oh bother.
they say that i can move the moutains
and send them crashing to the sea
they say that i can walk on waters
if i would follow and believe
with the faith like a childmy heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.
just went to meet char to give her bio notes.
read her blog and kinda agree..maybe thats what im feeling now. sigh..
and u dun have to keep saying sorry. guess im kind of on a swing now..just swingin btw up and down. dono where to go. dono whats my identity.
all i know is that jesus still loves me no matter who i am and no matter what i am.
and that is a fact.
my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.
my words fail me
stop my feet from walking there
you plead to everyone see the art in me
im feeling jaded.plits at the seams of my embroidery.
i dono what this feeling is.what this dread is all about.
intricate beauty falls like the petals of a withered rose
im supp to be sleeping..or studying now.
n sleep will just hunt me down.
when will i pass this phase..
when will i pass it.. before i lose control..
before the flowers wither and die.
im not sad.dun comfort me.
im not down.dun cheer me up.
close the door of my heart.
i know that only jesus knows how im feeling.
and i love you. i really do.
wont you come and embrace me.
piece together these fallen shards
make me whole
make me new
make me perfect and beautiful.
only you and me yeah now
only you and me
you're all im living for.
all im living for
but i wanto thank you lord.
for your everlasting love
for making the op a success.
i know that you will mk things fine.
but i will not tk it for granted..
and i wanto love you more.
i want to fall in love with the king.
fall in love with youmy heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.
im in the officce..and one week has flown past already.
gosh.i think im so piggy this week. kept sleeping when i was supp to study n pray.
mum has hidden my modem.again.so ya.
im readin my second last bk on chronicles of narnia.and the whole thing rocks. its so nice n exciting.
and i baked cookies on fri.n thye turned out veh soft.oh well. darren said it was a nice cake. irritating.
had a nice long chat with gini last night.and yest msg realy applied to me.
sigh.
i think i have alot of things to say.but i just dono wat to say. and alot of things have happend? some trivial some quite big.and maybe im jst leaving things to be stagnant. maybe some i probably forgot. haahs..
hmm. and im in a "subconcious awake" now. so tired.yet im not. so weird.
anyway i tink dad can be so legalistic n irritating sometimes.gets on my nerves. its like just so. ughh.
and mum's gonna haf op dis thurs.so please pray that it will be a smooth one.
and i feel like ive so much time on hand.yet im wasting it.
crap.
ahhh!
and i love you
all of my hope is in you
jesus christ
take my life
take all of me
in a dream
and im half in and out.my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.
grace that blows all fear away.
Friday, April 29, 2005
woohoo.
im supposed to be studying right now..but haiyuh.let me blog just once pleaaaaaaaaaassssse.
ok. permission granted.
i feel so happy cause i jogged 4 km just now..heeeheee.may not seem like a lot but oh well.it is for me k..everytime i will jog arn 3 km n im tired. and had my eng n chi paper one today.
hmm..sigh..dont think i will do well for my eng compo..crap lah..i wrote like 3 times..first i wrote qn2..den qn 5..den i cancelled n wrote 2..crap.i just have to leave things to god now.
god im sorry if i have doubted you.
im sorry if i have taken you for granted.
imsorry god.
sigh. and i feel kinda lousy n terrible cause i ve been falling aslp on my parents bed when studying n i din do my qt? my rm air con spoil so i can only study there.and the weather is like so hot lah...screams.
and had amaths tuition est at my unc hse fm 7plus til 11 plus..i wanted to scream at him to stop but i didn and asked god for patience n endurance..my unc just seem so concentrated and concerned about my work and i would have felt horrible if i did that.and i cried in daddy's car..but silently. was screaming in my soul.
sigh..i shall not doubt god's help.n i shall work harder..easier said then done.
but i think today's oral was good..mrs rod said i speak well..grins.at least one encouraging thought.
alone, my heart began its silent glide through space.
and in that moment, my spirit returned.
ok.back to studying.
Sunday, April 24, 2005
sigh.
im finally bloggin. was so busy this whole week.
and ive got so many things to say. just hop i wun forget them..
went to do CIP at simei yest..went to city link at first..but the ppl were so dao n selfish we din want to ask them for donations anymore..so we moved to bishan.
that was when i met my cute guy! *gushes.
ahh!! he plays badminton i think..was in his sports polo..it was yellow n black..n it had a spore flag on top..so thik his a national player..hahas.
hes so nice.as in i asked him to donate n he said he would come back..i waited quite long..thot he wouldn..but he did come back!! n he donated 2 bucks! hahas. so nice right? as in who would walk back all the way n give a two buck?
hahas.ok.but i dun think i will meet him again anyway..
wohoo.was washing all the socks the other day..and was chanting "christlike christlike" to push myself to wash..sigh. i think it is so difficult..and haiya.my amaths sucks.i think i really let down my uncle..he tried so hard..and i faild him and everyone else..why is my maths so lousy? i will just have t work harder..but i dun even know if that will help.
and i dont know what im doin now. especially last night..sigh.i know ma wun see this but who cares.im sorry ma. think i was so ap last night. ackx. tell you im weird.
yeah..o levels? study.
wont you take me by the hand take me somewhere new?
only you and me.
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Rich or Poor?
One day a father took his rich family and his son on a trip to the country with the firm purpose of showing him how poor people can be. They spent a day and a night on the farm with a very poor family. When they got back from their trip, the father asked his son, " How was the trip?"
" Very good, Dad! "
" Did you see how poor people can be? " the father asked.
" Yeah! "
" And what did you learn? "
The son answered, " I saw that we have a dog at home, and they have four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of the garden, they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lamps in the garden, they have the stars. Our patio reaches to the front yard, they have a whole horizon. "
When the little boy had finished, his father was speechless.
His son added, " Thanks dad! For showing me how poor we are! "
Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.
Matthew 5 : 3-6
so many times do we forget about the blessings around us and get complacent, grumbling and complaining about things.. why not give thanks to god..and be grateful for the death christ has paid on the cross so we could live.
he became like us
so that we could become like him.
the God who made the firmament,
who made the deepest sea,
the God who put the stars in place,
Is the God who cares for me.
-Berg
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
aiyo. ive been wanting to change my skin for so long and i have no time.
either that or blogskin screws up..
anyway..i think what added to my horrible emotions was that the fact that i was pmsing..
grins
ya..but was still feeling so lousy then.
still..i am past that stage and i do want and hope to not go there again.
there are of course some doubts and issues i haven settled yet. ( like how to mk howl mine.hee) ya..more impt stuff la..but all im concerned now is how to have faith like a child-how to please god and make him happy, and trust him in all circumstances.
and of course to force my lazy bum to study.
sigh. im already like wasting time. still have my lit to finish and bio too. last qn..darn.
anw received my exam timetable and found that it sucked totally..it was like so packed and cramped together..the wrong papers for the wrong days..oh bother.
they say that i can move the moutains
and send them crashing to the sea
they say that i can walk on waters
if i would follow and believe
with the faith like a child
Saturday, April 09, 2005
just went to meet char to give her bio notes.
read her blog and kinda agree..maybe thats what im feeling now. sigh..
and u dun have to keep saying sorry. guess im kind of on a swing now..just swingin btw up and down. dono where to go. dono whats my identity.
all i know is that jesus still loves me no matter who i am and no matter what i am.
and that is a fact.
i feel so frustrated now..hmm.dats not the word.
oh god please grant me patience..its like its such an obvious thing to do..yet..
hrrumff.
and i feel so guilty..like sometimes im just neglecting god..pushing him to one side. and i haven done a proper qt this whole week. ive tried.and i either get distracted or end up falling asleep.
sigh.
and i felt so horrible and terrible..and i dunnoe why all this dark thoughts are entering my head. i wish i had this shield to block all of them out. and that i have a special earpiece to hear from god? i know its gonna tk time and i just get so frustrated.
and now my sister is complaining and saying she doesn want to stay hm with me anymore.
i feel like such a loser useless sister.who cant even control an 8 yr old kid. n im supp to be nice and caring n everything.
really like my nic now. my wretchedness displayed.
just a total loser.
and i think the dark thoughts r taking over again. wth.. im supp to smile!
rahhhh.
and i dono if im to harsh sometimes. and i dono if im supp to do what im doin. n i just wanto get rid of my thoughts sometimes...guess i get too tired? okk..whatever..im gonna just leave things as they are?
but i know i cant. thats the trouble of it all. oh god help me help me.
i feel like just flying away.leaving the world behind. but i know its selfish to do so. and if ure reading n think im crazy n weird so be it. im just tired. n probably im just pmsing..
yarr.i have to lay it all down. lay it all down at the feet of jesus.
at the foot of the cross
where grace and mercy meet
bring me there
to the foot of the cross
where i know im found in forgiveness
where i know im loved
at the foot of the cross
where all else fades away
and i can only see your face
shining with glory and love
at the foot of the cross
Thursday, April 07, 2005
my words fail me
stop my feet from walking there
you plead to everyone see the art in me
im feeling jaded.plits at the seams of my embroidery.
i dono what this feeling is.what this dread is all about.
intricate beauty falls like the petals of a withered rose
im supp to be sleeping..or studying now.
n sleep will just hunt me down.
when will i pass this phase..
when will i pass it.. before i lose control..
before the flowers wither and die.
im not sad.dun comfort me.
im not down.dun cheer me up.
close the door of my heart.
i know that only jesus knows how im feeling.
and i love you. i really do.
wont you come and embrace me.
piece together these fallen shards
make me whole
make me new
make me perfect and beautiful.
only you and me yeah now
only you and me
you're all im living for.
all im living for
but i wanto thank you lord.
for your everlasting love
for making the op a success.
i know that you will mk things fine.
but i will not tk it for granted..
and i wanto love you more.
i want to fall in love with the king.
fall in love with you
Sunday, April 03, 2005
im in the officce..and one week has flown past already.
gosh.i think im so piggy this week. kept sleeping when i was supp to study n pray.
mum has hidden my modem.again.so ya.
im readin my second last bk on chronicles of narnia.and the whole thing rocks. its so nice n exciting.
and i baked cookies on fri.n thye turned out veh soft.oh well. darren said it was a nice cake. irritating.
had a nice long chat with gini last night.and yest msg realy applied to me.
sigh.
i think i have alot of things to say.but i just dono wat to say. and alot of things have happend? some trivial some quite big.and maybe im jst leaving things to be stagnant. maybe some i probably forgot. haahs..
hmm. and im in a "subconcious awake" now. so tired.yet im not. so weird.
anyway i tink dad can be so legalistic n irritating sometimes.gets on my nerves. its like just so. ughh.
and mum's gonna haf op dis thurs.so please pray that it will be a smooth one.
and i feel like ive so much time on hand.yet im wasting it.
crap.
ahhh!
and i love you
all of my hope is in you
jesus christ
take my life
take all of me
in a dream
and im half in and out.
Rescued my soul, my Stronghold
lifts me from shame
yak.
lifts me from shame
shout it out (:
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yak.
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